Yesterday was one of those days where nothing went right and I ended up feeling really let down – mostly undeservedly so.
First of all I was supposed to get a phone call and then a visit from someone, which never eventuated. There could be a good excuse I guess, but barring serious injury or death I can’t see a reason why a phone call to say they couldn’t come round wasn’t in order. Even if my phone number had been lost he could have got it off someone if he’d really tried.
Next, my sister came round to pick up her dog that’s always at my place because she can’t leave it at her place when she’s not there. The deal, when her dog started hanging out at my place just over two years ago, was that she would return the favour by babysitting JJ every now and again. It was a long time ago that she actually babysat, by the way, for reasons I will divulge in a minute.
I’d primed her a few months ago that I needed her to have JJ for one or two nights at the end of February, the last time I mentioned this was last week. When I brought it up yet again last night, she said that she couldn’t because she was going to help out at a car show in the town where her new boyfriend lives, four hours from Adelaide. I got a bit cross at this stage and reminded her repeatedly that I had told her about this some time ago and that she should honour her commitment. Her excuse was that I hadn’t written it down for her. I will keep at her because it’s not good enough. Sure, I know that she’s newly in love and everything gets put to the side when you’ve got a new boyfriend and you aren’t quite thinking with your head, but your heart.
Then I dropped JJ off at family day care as I had a dinner to go to and my babysitter is pregnant for the third time and I even, stupidly, felt a bit let down by that because she will not be able to babysit for me for a while. Selfish I know but that’s how I felt.
Last, but by no means least, the weather has been a let down, or a depressing, contributing factor. We’re in the midst of a heatwave here. It’s the fourth day, today, of temperatures at over 40 degrees celcius. It’s bloody hot, too hot to do anything outside really. The thing is, it’s the Tour Down Under this week and madmen have been riding their bikes for 3 hours plus in this heat. I don’t know how they do it. JJ and myself are going to the race today and the thought of sitting out in the heat isn’t doing much for me but at least I won’t be on a bike racing around a track.
I’d like to perk up, really I would.
And perk up you will sweetie. These “blues” come and go…you’ll be out of them soon…maybe even before you read this. I’m sorry that connection didn’t work out as you had planned…but, don’t automatically think the worst. There are usually reasons behind EVERYTHING. Don’t start second guessing yourself OR the situation. As far as your sis….I think you’re absolutely right. Now, be gone blues…SCAT!