My life seems to be all about making decisions at the moment – and some large decisions too. Sometimes it sucks being a grown-up.
Decisions about my relationships (ie how do I decide whether I should take him back or not?) and other decisions about my future that involve lots of money. That’s scary stuff. Sometimes thinking these through makes me lose sleep at night and that really annoys me. I wish I could just dream and then make the right decision but I don’t think that’s going to happen.
In addition, I got a letter from my council last week proposing to buy nearly 26 square metres of my land so it can widen a laneway that goes around half of my property. I don’t have that much land and this would be a fair chunk of it which includes two fairly well-established trees and a garden shed. Part of me thinks the money would be good and the rest of me wants to tell them to get stuffed. They also want half of my driveway. It’s obvious from google earth that it’s a driveway and I don’t know what the thought process was in including that in the land they want. It would make getting in and out of my driveway very difficult. So this is another thing I have to think about – an unwelcome thing.
Then there’s the small day-to-day decisions that are part of every day life. These smaller decisions will hopefully make my daily life run smoother and now that school is back things have certainly become more hectic. On Wednesdays JJ has piano practise, cricket practise, a small window of time to eat dinner, and then cub scouts. I feel dizzy just thinking about it. At least all his activities aside from sport on Saturday mornings are all over and done with in one day.
Along with these things are the forms that come with it giving the powers that be details about himself and myself, over and over again. Twice already I’ve had to apologise to the scout leader for a late form and beg to see if JJ can go on a particular excursion because I didn’t get it together earlier. I think I’m getting a system in place for all of this.
So, inbetween decisions, I try to not think about having to make them and just enjoy, and enjoy the perks that being a grown-up does have.