JJ’s first day of school went well in the end. I left him sitting on the floor in the classroom for group time. I could tell he was nervous but I hardened my heart and walked out anyway, blinking back my tears.
I went and had a coffee with a friend (another school mum who remembers what that first day is like for a parent), then I went shopping and afterwards popped into another friend’s place where she had a margarita all ready for me to drink. I couldn’t drink all of it as it was starting to go to my head and I didn’t think it would be a good look if I didn’t turn up on the first day to pick up JJ drunk, or not all all cause I smashed my car on the way home.
He really enjoyed his first day of school, he made friends he saw a great educational video and was keen to do some school work after we arrived home.
The second day, however, was quite different. When school was over, JJ’s teacher asked to have a talk to me in the classroom. As I walked in with her it took me back to school and the few times I got into trouble. Sure enough, JJ got into some trouble yesterday.
It wasn’t just one thing, it was more than one thing and after his teacher told one story about his behaviour, she kept saying and that wasn’t the worst thing. Actually she probably said it twice but it felt like more times. He ended up being picked up and taken to the principal’s office (because he wouldn’t walk there) and spent half an hour ‘with the man’. He didn’t do himself any favours by not acknowledging his misbehaviour.
She apologised to me for this happening on his second day at school but I felt like I should be apologising to her. My irrational side of thinking told me that I’m a complete failure as a parent. The irrational side went on to tell me that because I’m a sole parent, my son doesn’t have the male influence he so desperately needs, and sole parents cannot possibly bring up a child that doesn’t have some problems.
Fortunately my rational side kicked in and told me that teachers have probably seen it all and what JJ did was nothing really and once he’s settled in he’ll probably be fine. It also told me that I’m a caring parent that loves my son and if he does have problems at school I will work with the staff there to get him through them. Yeah! Go me!
For the record he was fine on Friday. He didn’t get into any trouble. Phew.