I stressed myself so much after yesterday, maybe needlessly as I tend to dwell on things when I should just move on and get over it but all I could think about was JJ trying to choke one of his friends and what awful consequences that could have had.
Last night I spoke to JJ about the ‘incident’ and he finally conceded that he hit his friend on the neck quite hard. I explained to him that she was really upset and that it really hurt her. I think I know who it was that he ‘hit’ but I’m hesitant to approach her mother (we are friends) just in case it’s not her. Who knows if he understood that he hurt his friend. What I am doing now is taking a harder line on the respect for me and for others so if he lashes out at anyone there will be immediate consequences, rather than me just say, ‘don’t do that’.
So after all of this I sat down after I’d put him to bed and just started feeling really sorry for myself. What I really would have liked is for someone to talk over it with right there and then, ideally his other parent. But that is not to be, so even a boyfriend – but I’m lacking one of those too. I also really wanted reassurance that I’m doing ok as a parent and I really wanted a massage to release the tension build up in my neck and shoulders. So I sat down and watched the rest of School of Rock and luckily that ends on a feel good note so that just had to do for me.